I SAY SCREW THEM

I have not been around here much lately and I really don't like it. I love writing my stories and getting all these thoughts in my head out but every time I try I get stressed out. Stressed because I feel like I really can't write what I want to. I can't express my true feelings and thoughts because I know so many people (in my real everyday life) that are reading and reading just to judge me. But today I say screw them! If they want to judge me and how I live my life then just go right ahead, the only thing I ask is that if you don't have something nice to say then just keep your damn mouth shut...just like your momma taught you, or should have taught you anyway.

Ok, now that that is out there you might see me around here a bit more often and that makes me happy.

So, this past weekend Dominic, Donnie as his friends like to call him, went to Pennsylvania for the weekend. One of Dominic's good friends from his childhood was celebrating his 40th birthday. His wife planned a huge surprise party for him and asked if we could attend. So Dominic and I flew up there as part of his surprise and man was it ever a surprise. Not only was it a great surprise for Serge to see us there, but it was even more of a surprise for me, because I not only met some really cool people but I made some super cool new friends and we totally fell in love Monica & Serge's little ones (but really who would not?).

It was a fast trip but a much needed one for Dominic and I. We have had a rough go of if for the past couple of years and the stress levels between us sure has taken it's toll, but this trip was what we needed. We had lots of time on the plane and in the airports to just be us, to just talk and to just reconnect, everyone needs that once in awhile.

I am still on my meds. (in case you are all wondering) and I am still feeling pretty good. I still have my crazy days but shit who doesn't? I mean 3 kids, 3 dogs, 2 jobs and a house to clean and all that goes with it. But for the most part I think it might be working. Well I think it's working, I'm never too sure or not.

I have not put out on single Christmas decoration! I know, I know I suck....but I have just not been in the holiday spirit. But this weekend I promised my kids that I would put out some Christmas things and I would even try to buy and put a couple presents under our little tree we are using this year.